Please keep our little Finn in your prayers. On Wednesday night he experienced two seizures - the second much worse than the first. We rushed him to the emergency vet.
After blood tests they discovered that his glucose is very low and that he most likely has an insulinoma, a pancreatic cancer. Given his age, we have chosen not to put him through aggressive treatment. We have consulted with our (his) vet and the internist who specializes in these things and have agreed to treat him with steroids and food management for as long as we can keep him comfortable. Unfortunately, his days are drawing short.
I love this picture of him - which we took last summer. Now, writing this, I'm not sure if he'll be here for the heat this summer. His life has had been nothing but a blessing to me and to all who know him. He is truly just a little angel.
If you pray, please pray for him and for us as we begin our final walk together. If you don't pray, we'd appreciate it if you'd just keep him in your thoughts. The knowledge that I will soon lose my precious baby is overwhelming to me and I am struggling to accept it so that I can focus on caring for him in his last days. At other times I am comforted in knowing that he has had a happy life - and that I pray that I have given him as many happinesses as he deserves.
xo - tonya
Posted by The Bee Charmer at 4:18 PM
I know - I've been MIA....
Well, not really. I've been MIA from the blog. I've been very immersed in the rest of my life. So much so that the blog is suffering.
Like the rest of my life, the blog is in transition.
I know y'all think it looks like I'm not doing anything but I'm actually thinking a lot about the future of this little blog and I need to make some changes. I just don't know how to do it.
Literally - I hired someone to do a template for me and now I can't change it and I want to. So I'm looking into it and in the meantime I'm sort of mentally stuck. Part of the problem with being me is that this kind of shit just freaks me out. And so I'm stuck.
But trust me when I tell you that I'm giving it lots of thought.
In the meantime, I know y'all all spent all year looking forward to my New Year's Resolutions but I swear I haven't had many thoughts this year ....
So far, I've only come up with a couple:
The first is to learn to make pho (I found a recipe).
The second is to love my life more - even when it's hard.
I hope that you can glean from this blog that I wish to be grateful, to be full of gratitude and no matter how grateful I ever am, I don't feel like I'm grateful enough. So I'm trying to be more grateful this year, more in love, more engaged, even when its hard.
So thanks for stopping by and I hope you all had a lovely, lovely holiday season.
I'll be in and out while I struggle with this. Thanks to all who visit!
Happy Weekend, everyone!
Our thoughts and prayers are with all those affected by Hurricane Sandy. Please consider donating to the American Red Cross, supported heartily here at Chateau Bee Charmer.
Also remember that the time changes this weekend - an extra hour of sleep on Sunday morning! Yay!
Stay safe and warm. Much love and peace to you all.
Image: Winter Lights by Elle Moss Photography.
"Later she remembered all the hours of the afternoon as happy -- one of those uneventful times that seem at the moment only a link between past and future pleasure, but turn out to have been the pleasure itself."
F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender is the NightImage: The Incredible Lightness No. 4 by Chelsea Victoria.